Happy 2017 Everyone! It’s now officially a brand new year! It’s the time of the year where everyone is ready to change and become a new person. However, everyone creates big plans, and then give up after one setback. So this year, I am doing things a little different.
On Christmas Eve, I went to mass with my family like I always do. However, this time, it was different. Maybe because I was unknowingly looking for a change. Or maybe because God was letting me know that everything was going to be okay. Either way, the words my priest spoke that day hit me in the heart, and it made me think.
Then, a few days later, an actress I follow posted this video. It was titled “Let Go and Let God”, and it was about letting God into your life and following the path he has created for you. For some reason, I chose to watch it, and I am so thankful I did.
It reminded me that I am not alone on this journey called life. No matter what is happening, God has a plan, and whatever I am going through is making me stronger.
After watching this, I started to think about my anxiety. My anxiety is awful. It stops me from doing fun things and makes me sick with worry and fear. I never understood why I was chosen to have it. Why was I given something that I don’t understand, and that stops me from living my life? Well, the more I thought about it, the more I realized that God gave me my mental illness for a reason. I may not know why that is yet, but hopefully, soon, I’ll figure it out.
Along with the video, I came across the bible verse above the other day on Twitter. After trying and thinking about how God is involved in my life, I was still lost. Along with being lost in my faith, I felt lost in my weight loss journey. Since the holidays, I haven’t been the best at eating and working out, so I am just lost. Then this verse popped up, maybe as a reminder that God has a plan for me, and he will be there with me every step of the way.
So in 2017, I decided to focus on my faith, and reintroduce myself to God and start listening to him. I am going to try and stop living in fear and try living in faith a little bit more.
I decided that every now and again, in between posts about my anxiety, and my daily struggles with that, I will also post about how my journey with God is going. Hopefully, with my faith becoming a bigger part of my life, my anxiety will decrease, and I’ll enjoy living life again.
Thank you all for reading this. I know it’s a little all over the place, so if you made it to the end, you’re the real MVP. I am excited to see where 2017 takes me. I already feel like I am in a better place, and hopefully, in 361 days, I’ll be in a new place in all aspects of my life. And together, maybe we can change our lives and our anxiety!
Until next time!