There’s nothing worse about dealing with your anxiety than when you’re having a bad day. It feels like nothing can go right, and in your head, you feel like you don’t deserve things to go right.
I’ve had my fair share of bad days recently. On these days, I don’t want to get out of bed. I just want to lay under the covers, and just cry. But then, my anxiety doubles itself up by making me worry about missing important things. So instead of crying and taking care of myself like I should, I get out of bed, try to be the best “me” I can be. However, I usually end up making myself sick with worry and stress.
So why can’t we just take a “bad day” off and take care of ourselves. Forget work or responsibilities for a minute, and focus on making ourselves okay.
One reason for me, is because I am afraid I will be replaced. My self confidence, especially my work self confidence, is pretty much non existent. I don’t think I’m good enough, so I am always scared that if I take sometime for myself, I’ll be replaced because I feel like they can find someone better than me. Now I don’t know how much truth there is to that, but my anxiety sure thinks it true.
Another reason my bad days get out of control is because I feel like I have no one to talk to. My best friend lives across the country, so we always seem to miss each other when we’re having bad days. I also don’t like to talk to people because I do not want to burden them with my problems. On top of that, I don’t want to let them down. If I have bad news to share, or if something goes wrong, I always get extremely anxious and usually make myself sick over worry and fear of sharing that news with my parents or brother. I am lucky that I do have people in my life to talk to when times get tough, but I hate letting them down, so instead of talking, I hold it all in until I explode.
I’ve had my ups and downs with anxiety lately. But one thing I’ve learned is, that just because you’ve had a bad day, that doesn’t mean everyday is going to be bad. And when things get extremely bad, there is someone there for you.
So my advice is to take care of yourself first. Lay in bed all day if that’s what it takes. Open up to someone if that helps you. Just think about yourself first. Because if you’re anxious and making yourself sick with fear or worry, then you’re no good to anyone else. So make yourself smile before you worry about others.
Until next time!