Today I was offered a proposition that most young adults my age would jump on immediately. Me however, I begin to overthink everything, and usually end up talking myself out of going on fun adventures. But today was different for me. Today, I took the offer seriously.
Living in my brain, it’s constantly a battle of “What If’s”. Like , “what if this happened?” or “what if that happened?”. And then, most of the time, I end up not doing something I would probably really enjoy.
I’ve been turning down offers left and right since I was a senior in high school. I mean, I didn’t even go away to college until I was 20 because I was too nervous. Now here I am at 23, almost 24, and I’m still turning down invites from friends and family. It’s honestly no surprise to me why I don’t have more friends.
But it’s now almost 6 months into 2016. So why can’t I change it up now? Why can’t I say yes to an invitation to have a once in a lifetime experience? I have the money and I have the support from others. So why isn’t that enough? Maybe now it is.
They say you only live once, so why not make the most out of your time. Not only would this adventure allow me to meet new people, but maybe, it would help me start to grow out of my shell. Maybe it would allow my anxiety to take a back seat once in a while. And maybe, just maybe, it would allow me to start to truly enjoy the life I am living.
People always say you need to live and not just exist. It never really occurred to me what that meant until today. So hopefully, I can start to live, and stop letting my thoughts and worries hold me back.
Until next time!